The practices we are doing are about getting out of the way
of what wants to arise. All those composers who said “it came through me, I
received it, hearing it all” were talking about that. It’s a completely
different model than the sonar-like soundings of an artist looking for
confirmation.
To perform at all, there has to be some pleasure in being
seen. In some cases it’s a need, the way one gets validation, or feels
self-worth. What a minefield!
The audience could never substitute for what must be an
internal job—understanding one’s worth on a deep level, having conviction that
one belongs on this earth irrespective of applause or accomplishment.
Addressing those needs in a saner way leaves room for truer
and riskier art adventures. They are liberated then from fulfilling a role they
should never have been expected to fill.